I woke up this morning and decided that I’m done adulting! Finished! El Dunno!
No more adult responsibilities.
No more adult decision making.
No more adult conversations.
And no more work. Okay, maybe not work since I love what I do.
But no more everything else that requires more thoughts than I care to give right at this moment.
Remember when life was easy? When life consisted of making plans filled with things that made you happy? When life was a beautiful merry-go-round and the only decision that needed to be made was what color of horse you were going to ride? When the only to-do’s for the day was what you were going to eat and where you were going to shop?
Those were the days…the days when my Faja (dad) would give me his credit card and say, “Go and have fun, that should be all that you think about today”. Gosh I love that man. He is everything I wanted in a life partner. My Faja is one of the sweetest humans I know. Never judgmental and always kind. Especially to me since I’m his favorite.
ME: (Speaking out loud as I peer at my reflection in the mirror) Where did the time go?
COWBOY: (Coming out of the closet fully dressed in his rugged cowboy attire and looking perfectly handsome) Where did what time go?
ME: I don’t know. I was just reflecting.
COWBOY: (Rubbing his face like he does when he realizes he should have kept on walking) Is this going to be a short reflection or a long reflection?
ME: I don’t know yet. I just miss my time at home with mom and dad. It was so easy then. I wasn’t being pushed and pulled in all of these directions.
COWBOY: You realize that you are the reason that everything is the way that it is, right? You should be proud and I know you well enough to know that if you didn’t want to do it, you wouldn’t.
ME: I know. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love my life and everything that I’m doing are all goals that I’ve wanted to conquer and all are definitely on my bucket list. But still, I wish I could go back and relive my care free youth.
COWBOY: (Chuckling) Why don’t you call your dad and see if he’s willing to take you back?
ME: Why are you laughing?
COWBOY: (Chuckling again) Because on our wedding day, I specifically remember your dad saying “she’s all yours and no take backs”.
ME: He did not!
COWBOY: Yep, I’m pretty sure he did.
’til next Sunday y’all.
xo, Tammyβ₯
